No, I did not come up with that title...if only I were such a writer. But I discovered this song and the songwriter who wrote it today, only to also discover that she is the writer of some of the songs that have become part of my life's soundtrack. Her name is Christa Wells; she wrote "Held" and "Our Hope Endures" as recorded by Natalie Grant, and many, many more. This song so perfectly expresses much of what I try to verbalize about how to reconcile the joy and beauty of experiencing God's grace against the brokenness and suffering I see around me. God is good. His gifts are amazing. He is at work in this world to bring glory to Himself and to make all things new. At the same time, people suffer, children die, orphans wait, so many lose hope. And sometimes, I just wantto go home. But as long as I am here, I fight to sing in the empty places, rejoice in His gifts, and to really love people beyond myself, my fears, and my hurts. Most days I fail miserably, and I often cannot comprehend how He takes me, loves me, and wants to use me in all my brokenness. But I know He is the only One who is worth giving my life for, so I love Him and I reach for Him and I grasp on to His grace for the day.
I love Jesus Christ, am a seeker of beauty, and am a grateful child of God who would be lost and hopeless were it not for His grace. I am learning to walk in love, see interruptions as divine appointments, and value people and relationships above agendas and results. I pray my life is grace-filled, and brings joy and encouragement to everyone I know and meet. We are a family of 6, built by God through love, birth, and adoption, living in the beauty and the struggle that accompanies parenting kids from hard places. Got questions? Email me at firstname.lastname@example.org.